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The Sad Truth

I just came out of my final for Psych.  A little bit of background on that class.  I’ve been doing fairly well ( a lot better than Adult Health).  However, I still needed to pass this Final to pass the course.

In Nursing School you have to have a cumulative average of a 77% on all tests.  Therefore, If you get all As in your assignments but you do not meet that average of a 77% on the exams you will fail.  Anyhow,  I studied A LOT for it, and as I took the exam I was relieved when I knew most of the answers.  However,  as time passes, I am feeling that dreadful anxiety that doesn’t let me breathe properly.  I have a tight feeling in my chest and I feel sick to my stomach.

The last Final I took, I failed and look where that got me.  I do not know what I will do if I fail the final I just took.  I used to know when I failed or passed, and now I am an uncertain mess.

The sad truth is that I do not trust myself anymore.

 

 

 

As I write this I am sitting outside my home (locked out) and I am feeling a little better by just looking at the trees as they move through the wind, feeling the breeze as if it were caressing me and listening to a beautiful birds song.

I love nature…it soothes the soul, gives peace to the mind, and calms my overly fast beating heart.

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Waiting for Grades

If you read my previous post you are aware of the situation I am in.  I took my final for Adult Health and I want to say that I feel good about it, but not good enough to know if I passed.  Its definitely another episode of Pharmacology ( I just hope it has the same ending).  I studied all weekend and I studied till 5 this morning ( probably shouldn’t have done that…).

Naturally, after a big final our class went down for lunch (around 10 am) and we had a good time. I have to admit that what I am feeling is strange.  Last year when I went through the same scenario (some people just done learn) I was having trouble breathing.  Now, I have a pain on my chest and I feel an odd sense of stiff relaxation.  I have to consciously breath too- apparently I forget to breath because I find myself taking taking deep breathes.

One my close friends invited me to go out for a couple of drinks and at the time I wanted to go out and have a bit of stress free fun, but I am now feeling exhausted and I have another assignment to do.

I think I will go out for a run to just calm myself down & hope for the best-
Because at this point that is all I can do.

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The way I see it

Over Joyed

I am so happy!

fjdshf hsd;k hf; f;ksdh;kflj dsa hf;ka!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!fkdahfkldsjf;lkjf;lkja!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Translation: 

I passed I passed I passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im in the library smiling really big and near to tears.  When I saw my grade I started laughing like a maniac- I’m insane.  The girl next to me got up and left- As I’m writing this Im giggling like an idiot!

I know I sound stupid, forgive me but I’m just full of emotion right now.

Last night I was having trouble breathing and my chest was hurting- all from the stress of not knowing if I was going to pass my Pharmacology exam.  “Nursing school will really be the end of me” I thought.  Nevertheless, here I am…alive and ready for this Christmas break!

Passing a class with a passing grade has never made me feel so alive!
I am so happy to be alive!

Some call me overly dramatic, but I cant help it!

Woo I passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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