The way I see it

Blabber of the Day

Hello you all,

In a previous post I talked about how Adult Health will NOT be the end of me and I stand by that.  Yes, I am extremely disappointed in myself, yes I am consistently reminded that I failed at something twice, yes I want to die- Just kidding, I do not want to die.  Although, to be honest I was so sad that I thought I would die- I’m secretly dramatic.

Anyhow,  the job hunt is on.  I am also looking to get my CNA license next week so I have that to look forward to.

On a side note- when life comes and hands you your butt in a silver platter sometimes you just need to go out into the wilderness, so that’s what I am going to do.

I wasn’t so excited about this trip in the past mainly because it was church related (dont get me wrong, I love my church- I’m just not a big fan of activities) but now I am happy to go (nature is awesome!).  Last Sunday a girl from church said the following quote

0c1505f1dbc57cd658c671beacd365f3I like this quote- it brought peace and gave me something to think about.  I may not have succeeded but that’s okay, because I know that I eventually will =)


A Sense of Impending Doom

I haven’t been writing because up until yesterday I have been studying from the crack of dawn to about midnight.

BTW, that is an actual medical symptom for people that are just terrified (impending doom). I am sad to announce that i did not get the 77% test average. To make myself feel better, I did get a 77%-78% (if you round) in the class, but not the test average, which is exactly what happened with Adult health last semester. Not only am I a semester behind, but a whole year now.

I found out yesterday and yes I felt like a legit failure. I was SO close (again) I have all these plans and they keep falling apart. I just can’t believe it happened to me a second time…it’s definitely discouraging.

My dad hugged me last night and he told me that I could never disappoint him. My mom was the same way. I love them both so much. I honestly do not know where I would be without them.

My plans right now are on hold. I will be turning in my petition as soon as possible so I can have the opportunity to try yet again to pass the class. I know the material, I just need to learn what a nurses priority needs to be for each condition (that’s the hard/essential part).

Hopefully my petition gets granted & I swear that I will never fail again (class wise). I’ll quit my job if I have to- I have to be really dedicated- I cant afford another slip up.

Ill keep you all posted with my Nursing education.