I just came out of my final for Psych. A little bit of background on that class. I’ve been doing fairly well ( a lot better than Adult Health). However, I still needed to pass this Final to pass the course.
In Nursing School you have to have a cumulative average of a 77% on all tests. Therefore, If you get all As in your assignments but you do not meet that average of a 77% on the exams you will fail. Anyhow, I studied A LOT for it, and as I took the exam I was relieved when I knew most of the answers. However, as time passes, I am feeling that dreadful anxiety that doesn’t let me breathe properly. I have a tight feeling in my chest and I feel sick to my stomach.
The last Final I took, I failed and look where that got me. I do not know what I will do if I fail the final I just took. I used to know when I failed or passed, and now I am an uncertain mess.
The sad truth is that I do not trust myself anymore.
As I write this I am sitting outside my home (locked out) and I am feeling a little better by just looking at the trees as they move through the wind, feeling the breeze as if it were caressing me and listening to a beautiful birds song.
I love nature…it soothes the soul, gives peace to the mind, and calms my overly fast beating heart.