Hanging on

Its like Pharmacology all over again.  

I am ranging on a 79% on my Adult Health class.  I am feeling that anxiety that comes with the tightness of the chest and I feel like I have an apple stuck inside my throat.  I keep swallowing trying to get rid of it but its not moving.  I randomly burst into tears and then I clean myself up.  I am so weird.  

People reading this probably think I am a psycho…..

I though I passed my exam from yesterday, but I was wrong. I got a 66% on it.  I was so sure I passed it =( I was hoping to get a good grade on this so I wouldn’t have to stress as much for the final as I am now.  

I have a picture of my parents by my desk and I am so afraid of disappointing them.  

Bad grades are the only thing in the world that can make me moody and get me to take it out on people…nerd status- I know. 

Well, that was the update.  I am a mess- BUT I will study my brains out.  




I’m Surviving

Yes, I am exaggerating- but based on my limited experience I am surviving.  This past week I’ve been sleeping about 3-4 hours a day.  I have Adult Health & apparently this is the class that many other people have failed.  I didn’t pass my first quiz, but I did pass my first text as well as my second quiz.

I am feeling rather disappointed in myself due to my barely passing grades.  I’ve been getting grades between 80%-86%.  Now, if you read my previous, post a low C in Nursing school is a 77% or something like that.  So as you can see, I am barely passing.  I have below average grades.  It is definitely stressful especially when considering the fact that I used to be an A & B student.

Those days are over.  However, based on my lack of income I cant afford to quit my job, (technically I can, but I dont want to strain my parents) and I need to start saving up for next year.  I profoundly refuse to get another loan for school.  Its terrible how much in debt I am right now.  When I think about it I just want to roll in to a ball and flow away with the wind.

Anyhow, I find myself writing about my experiences and then I save them as drafts…which sort of defies the purpose of having this blog.

I am in my second semester of Nursing school (JR 2- Med-Surge) and I love it.