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Uncertain

Guess what?

I turned in my nursing application this past Monday ( June 19th). I waited so long to jump back in that I’ll have to redo some classes but I am overall OK with it. Its not ideal but I can’t complain.

I was told that I start in 2- 3 semesters.

Now, its yet again another waiting game. This time I will win.

Life is funny –

My mother was admitted to the hospital on the 16th of June (shes out now).  She has been having this intense pain on her abdomen (RUQ).  I wont  go into much detail because this blog is more Nursing related (Plus writing about it makes me very sensitive)
but this Blog post has been left unfinished for a while and the situation can be related to Nursing.

Today is 07/10/2017- and to simplify things, on July 3rd- my mother was told that she had about 3-6 months to live.

This situation has gotten me thinking about lots of things;  one of those things is Nursing School.  I am now, more than anything motivated to finish.

I’m worried about our financial situation, about my younger siblings, my dad….my mother.

Things have gotten incredibly hard-

I am a living emotional roller-coaster.

I don’t want to loose my mom-

I wish things were different but if life has taught me anything- it’s that we cant live in the past…because thinking of the “Could haves” doesn’t changed the “now”.

I’m going to work extra hard now.

I want her to see me getting back into nursing school, I want her to see me graduate.

Pray for us

Send us positive vibes-

Love those around you-

 

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2017

I have to admit that last year was NOT what I expected or had planned out. That’s life though and I am much better at going with the flow. I believe in my last post I said something about not posting until I have news with Nursing school. Well the news is that there is NO news.

Does this mean I have given up? No, it just means I didn’t sort out my priorities.  I have this full time job and I let it consume me. I was so caught up with just working and doing the adult thing that I nearly forgot about my dreams. Keyword: NEARLY.

I went back to Gateway and will be applying for all of the nursing programs. I’m going to retake the HESI to get a more competitive score.

This year i will stay focused. If I’ve learned from my mistakes then this year will be good 🙂

Nursing school…my never ending story.

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One Way or Another

Today is Wednesday- 1745- its hot and I’ve got a headache.  It’s this nagging, non stop pulse like headache.

This past Monday I went to Community College.  I got there approximately at 0945 to meet with an adviser and I talked to one around 1345.  Yes, it was a very LONG wait, BUT highly effective.  I only regretted not meeting with her earlier.

Its kind of funny how I only started working so I could save up for school, but I let my work delay the process of my applying.

I have to retake the HESI exam, because I sped through it thinking I was going to be tested on Chemistry and Biology.  I was NOT tested on that material and I ended up finishing a whole hour early.  I sped through math when I could have taken my time.  I didn’t get the required score.  I can only retake it after 60 days…

I hate that I messed up but I’m done beating myself up over it.
I also emailed the Nursing Director for permission to reenter and I gave me all of the syllabus from my nursing classes.  I also attached my transcripts from ASU and I already spoke to the Nursing Director from ASU who will be writing my letter of why I am no longer at ASU.

Shes going to decide my fate (in regards to Nursing only…I’m dramatic, but not that dramatic)

I have to admit that I have been feeling somewhat humiliated, but this is what I want.  I’m going to become a nurse one way or another.

I don’t know if I can start this semester (I hope I can), if I can’t start this semester I will have to begin again….or so I’ve been told.

It’s definitely hard news, but I’m okay.

I will do this.

 

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It’s May

I’ve been reading old posts.  I went from Class of 2015 to Class of 2016 to Class of Who the Hell knows.  It’s a little funny now, and a little sad.  Tomorrow is my day off from work, and I will go to the AZBN office and ask about that CNA test.  My waiver got denied because I took the courses over 2 years ago.  In the email it said pending ASU transcript, so I am confused as to why it says that since I sent it all at the same time.  Anyhow, I’m going tomorrow and clearing this whole mess up.  I don’t see why they should deny my waiver when I’ve been doing clinical rotations practically every semester.  It’s not like I lost practice.
I shouldn’t be surprised though…everything has been going wrong (Nursing related).

I just have to keep pursuing it because It’s what I want.  I went ahead and ordered the HESI A2 book so I can begin to study.  I will pass that test with flying colors! I’m actually excited to study that book.  I can’t believe I am saying this, but I miss studying.
I need to get the ball rolling on this Nursing school stuff, I feel like I haven’t done much in regards to that aspect, and it’s because of my job.  I work Tuesday to Saturday 0900-1700 & consequently I only have Mondays to do everything.  I also have my other job Thursday-Saturday from 1800-2000, so practically my weekends revolve around ZERO fun.
Most likely I will change my days- perhaps cut a day or two from my second job.

Changing subjects, my case management position is pretty sweet.  I don’t hate my coworkers.  The work can get stressful, but its manageable.  My office buddy, whom I will call Lola is absolutely hilarious.  Shes one of those people that isn’t trying to be funny, but the way she interacts with people is funny.  Shes slightly awkward and the best part is that she doesn’t talk a lot.  She lets me work.

In my next post I will talk more about what I do exactly.  Untill then ….

Stay safe =)

EC

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Oh Brother…

Well, things have definitely taken a turn for the UNKNOWN.  I know what I want, I know I will eventually get it- but my life time line is completely skewed.  I have no way of fixing it due to the fact that I am still not sure if I will start school this semester.  I absolutely HATE it.  I don’t think you can possibly know this gut awful feeling I get when I think about my future-it sucks.  I’ve said it before & Ill say it again…I just have to roll with what comes at me.

Its pretty late so I cant/wont elaborate.  Stay tune.

Just know that my Nursing Career is NOT over =)

& also know that I have a serious crush on someone, which is a very nice distraction from my own self regulating/torturous  thoughts. 

 

 

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Just Keep Swimming!

It’s ironic since I don’t know how to swim, but I’m going to assume you all have seen Finding Nemo.  Life plans have not been going at all.  It’s almost hilarious- like the world is laughing at me, but I’m going with it.  It’s what you have to do to remain sane people….just ROLL with it.  Trust me- you get used to it.

In a previous post I mentioned that I got a job and I really do like it.  I share an office with an older lady.  She talks A LOT.  I like her, but just the way she goes on and on- I hope I don’t loose my sanity.  While working here, I have found myself mildly obsessed with some guy.  I’ll talk about him later- hes a very nice distractor from everything.

I went to go talk to a lady from NAU/Community College.  I am still going to be a nurse, but I need to know how that is going to happen.  She gave me GREAT advise…which was  a reality check.   I know I’m in a deep hole but she was just so blunt/nice about it and she just wanted to help me out.  ASU already denied my petition and my ASU adviser (shes great too) pretty much told me that ASU was a no go.  The NAU lady, instead of suckering me into coming to her school (which they would but it would take me longer) she told me to “beg, cry and steal” to get back into ASU.  I am so much closer if I go back than any of my other options.   Right now my transcripts are being reviewed and I could potentially be placed in third block-but I could still need 10  more classes & that is IF I get into block 3.  I was going to petition back into ASU anyhow, but it was more of a “bleh” effort.  After listening to her, I’m going to petition and I am going to really sell my story.  I did have a lot of obstacles in my previous failures and I’m just going to really push that.  If it weren’t for those issues, community potentially could have been my only failure.  If ASU still says no then Ill have no choice but to go to plan B. I just have to truly try- and in the end it’ll be okay =)

In regards to my CNA plans, looks like they are put on hold *world laughing*  I got an email last Wednesday saying that the AZBN denied my waiver because it had to be done within 2 years.  I knew about the two years, and I thought that the clinical rotations I’ve been doing since then would count.  I am hoping that it is mistake and they will see all of the rotations  I’ve been doing.

Needless to say I cried and what not….I got crushed all over again.

Things just didn’t work out for me and you now what- That is life.  I must never compare myself to the rest though because that is when I start to feel very incompetent.  We are all different and I am not going to measure myself up to no one except me.  I don’t blame anyone for what is happening except for myself, and you now what- I am learning from every single thing that happens to me.

I’ll keep you all posted

 

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